Thursday, September 29, 2005
ok thats it i dont care anymore... blogger is acting weird and since i don't really care for livejournal (so dull) i'll just post! i CANNOT believe that yani actually got back with that guy... just because he cried... (no weiting, this is NOT touching)... i mean seriously, he is no good for her... he is 1. younger (2 yrs), 2. academically disinclined (sp??), and 3. he measures how much he likes a girl in PERCENTAGE... which idiot... 4. he bloody likes some other girl!!! that alone is good enough for her to dump him and have no regrets! i really want to stangle her! ergh... then there's that little voice in my head that tells me to let her be and make her own mistakes... should i listen? probably but...but... she's my friend! i cant leave her at his mercy! oh look at me im having an arguement with myself while im blogging... im in serious need to de-stressing... ok now that i got that out of my system... i had my chinese exam the other day.. opps i mean yesterday... it wasnt as i expected... don't know if thats good or bad... cant bother to figure out the pros and cons... i was thinking recently (no that is NOT a dangerous activity) while looking at the stars at night... i like to do that... in fact i think i could stand at the window and stare at the stars the whole night if i could... anyway back to the topic... i was wondering about the planets and stars and the whole universe... and i was thinking that maybe somewhere out there, in another universe, that there may actually be other humans... in another universe... or at least organisms... no not aliens... just... okay everyone knows that by the year 5000-something AD that the sun will explode, taking all planets and lifeforms in this universe with it... so that brought me to wonder... why do we work so hard, why do we need advanced technology (i mean, it only speeds up our deaths -- think geog lesson) why do we want to achieve so much when our legacy will end and in the end there will be nothing but space, matter & anti-matter, nothing essentially... what is the point of working so hard when no-one will remember you? To bring what? money? joy? (sorry for the pun dear) honour? only to be forgotten? think: in the long run, we are working to destroy ourselves... i mean... okay... we work so that people will have better lives... advancing technology, finding cures, overcoming obstacles blahblahblah... does anyone ever bother to think that one day we will all be forgotten? do you actually think that one day in 4000-something anyone will remember raffles? will singapore even exist anymore? we are being destroyed by our own greed... for what? the need to live better... is it really human desire to learn more? perhaps. is it really human emotions which drive us? most certainly. but is it our humanity that requires us to want to live better? i dont know. what i do know is that we want to live better because of what other people say, do & think. from young its been driven into us that we must work hard, must go to a good sec school, then JC, then university, thereafter get a good job. why do we see a need to do all that? because of the world around us... its an unwritten rule. law. confinement. that tells us that its either work hard or live at the bottom of the social ladder... after that, its completely human emotion. pride to be exact. our ancestors never had to worry about the economy.. no all they had to worry about was getting food for breakfast, lunch and dinner... today's society has to keep track of money... Money... *bitter laugh*... how is it that sheets of paper with pictures and numbers on them could cause so much trouble? it creates poverty when in short, and greed for more when in excess. perhaps it is what drives humans greed... lets think... stealing? yup. gambling? yup. will we ever go back to the way life once was? no. we are conditioned to live the way we do in today's society and we probably always will. alright.. enough of my deep thought which i have been thinking about since i-dont-know-how-old i've blogged enough for one day... okay since i've taken so much time writing this, will someone please tell me why do we work so hard for anyway? im curious about what you think... i mean i cant just base my argument on my thoughts alone now can i? okies.. love you all! ;P *muax* arriverderci!
4:53 PM
Monday, September 26, 2005
I CANNOT believe that i followed joy and went to blogthings... just so you know... the real thing you want to be reading is in the last post... below... *points down* this is just a place for me to show off the results of some quizes i took... agree or disagree.. tag!
Nothing to say about this...
Your Power Color Is Lime Green |
At Your Highest:
You are adventurous, witty, and a visionary.
At Your Lowest:
You feel misunderstood, like you don't fit in.
In Love:
You have a tough exterior, but can be very dedicated.
How You're Attractive:
Your self-awareness and confidence lights up a room.
Your Eternal Question:
"What else do I need in my life?" |
Hmm... waddaya think?
Your Blogging Type Is Thoughtful and Considerate |
You're a well liked, though underrated, blogger.
You have a heart of gold, and are likely to blog for a cause.
You're a peaceful blogger - no drama for you!
A good listener and friend, you tend to leave thoughtful comments for others. |
Hahas geesh im old.. but i dont mind... i like being mature hehehe... (how mature i sound huh...)
You Are 24 Years Old |
Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.
13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.
20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.
30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!
40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax. |
Just so you know i so totally agree with this... do you?
Your Personality Is |
Idealist (NF)
You are a passionate, caring, and unique person.
You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals.
You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily.
Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings.
You seek out other empathetic people to befriend.
Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships.
In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily.
At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career.
With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone.
As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style.
On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours. |
I dun care what you say about this... i personally love it... hehehe...
Your Birthdate: January 25 |
Your birth on the 25th day of the month (7 energy) modifies your life path by giving you some special interest in technical, scientific, or other complex and often hard to understand subjects.
You may become something of a perfectionist and a stickler for details.
Your thinking is logical and intuitive, rational and responsible.
Your feelings may run deep, but you are not very likely to let them show.
This birthday makes you a more private person, more introspective and perhaps more inflexible.
In friendships you are very cautious and reserved.
You are probably inventive, and given to unique approaches and solutions. |
I dun care what you say about this either... i LIKE it!
Your Brain's Pattern |
You have a dreamy mind, full of fancy and fantasy.
You have the ability to stay forever entertained with your thoughts.
People may say you're hard to read, but that's because you're so internally focused.
But when you do share what you're thinking, people are impressed with your imagination. |
7:41 PM
Sunday, September 25, 2005
Right... so i had my english exams on friday... i cannot believe im sitting at the front of the class! i mean how can the register number 29 be in the front of the class? its ridiculous... anyway.. the paper was quite alright... when i got Paper 1, i looked at the section 1 the compo part... scanned it and decided to do the info report first... turned the page and saw that we were supposed to write an info report on... CIP!!! hahahahaha... oh my gosh... i never knew COPE was supposed to be so damn useful... hehehe... i think i heard Ya Ni laughing... hmm... so obviously i had alot to write about it... i think i'll do better for info report than compo... so.. neway for my compo i decided to write the narrative... 'i made a mistake in confiding in him' about a girl who had planned so hard on her mother's birthday party then bragged about it to her half-bro... so she had to keep a lookout for him the whole night worrying that he would do something to spoil her hard work... she was surprised when he actually didnt do anything... so she confronted him and he simply told her "i was under the impression that tonight wasn't about you" then turned and walked away... when the girl thought back later that night, she realised that maybe she judged her bro a little too harshly and thought that he could be kind when he wanted to but just not to her, yet she found that she didnt mind... deeksha thought it was sweet... hmm... i dunnoe... i think it wasnt my best but hey it was forced out of me.. what do you expect? then the hour break inbetween the exam papers... ms jou came to talk to deeksha, ber and me cause we were the only ones outside the classroom.... she wanted to know whether the test was confusing... we said it wasn't bad... ooo... then i played hang-man with er... too many people to name... for the rest of the time... now the second paper, i actually found a mistake but ms cheang said to just follow the script, it shouldnt be wrong... but isint it 'a universal concern'? not 'an universal concern'? arh weirded out... ooo yah... yani's birthday was that day... she was cursing that her birthday was on english exam day... i cannot believe that i forgot her present.. i left it on my table and i forgot to take it!!! arh... anyway... yanyao made brownie-cake for yani and i asked her to make some for me too... she made two brownies-cupcakes... they completely replenished my sugar supply...hahas.. i was sooo envious of yani... her friends from 2O came to say happy birthday and even your class sang her the birthday song... my friends in 2H... if you can call them that.... didnt even remember... and 2S didnt sing me my song... *pouting* huh! but then again it was so early in the year that no-one really knew me yet... i only got presents from weiting, cheryl, shahini and yani... well it was better than last year i suppose... hahas... oh and the latest update on yani: her supposed bf told her he only likes her 55% the other 45% belongs to her friend jerlyn from 2O... geez the nerve of some people! so being her good friend, i told her to dump him... hey what are friends for? xp... lastly before i finish my blog entry, i'd just like to say that i've been feeling out of sugar lately cause it finally hit me that i won't see my 2S friends next year... so i wrote a letter (sort of) in my autograph book for them to read when i ask them to sign in my autograph book... sigh... i hope they wont think its too mushy... lols... love you all! oh and joy dear... could you hurry up with that chapter, i'd like to see my name in that fanfic BEFORE i leave next year... thanx a bunch! ;P *muax* arriverderci!
5:21 PM
Saturday, September 17, 2005
hmm... its been so long... hahas... dots... hmm...well.... since the last time i updated... i wrote 2 new fics (Summer Rain and Laugh, I command you!) one was rather sad and the other was very funny.. to me anyway... well and so... oh yeah... guess what? i got B3 for my chinese CA2! i could be the happiest girl alive if not for the fact that exams are drawing near... lets see.... yesterday my sister's school (er... my primary school) celebrated Mid-autumn festival and my sister's teacher made it compulsary for them to go... so my mum, dad and i went to send her to school then we headed to parkway to eat dinner and wait for her to finish or be ready to come home... im suddenly wishing that i did go back... cause apparently someone told me that the kids there have BGR!!! i was like holy crap lah... honestly having BGR at...at... in primary school! its hilarious come to think of it... i mean who in their right mind would date a primary school boy? immature brats... so anyway... my sister is either acting completely innocent or really doesnt know... i aint gonna bet on the latter... i mean if i had been in the school for 6 years, oh wait i did... anyway... i'd at least know the gossip in the school like the back of my hand... well i did until i got out of the school last year... anyway... i stayed in MPH after eating dinner a the basement foodcourt and read the entire Raven's Gate... hmm.... its scary what technology and magic can do together... so then i had to fetch my sister... i tried to call ya ni to talk to her but she was still in the middle of her "date" with tbf... long story... really LONG story... anyway... i dun feel like writing much today... i just feel very pissed off for some odd reason... i didnt really talk much today... if i did, it was in one or two words... today was just a freaky day... oh and i found out that if i put on a hair band and tie up the remainder of my hair in two pig tails i look kinda cute! hahas... neway... ;P *muax* arriverderci!
8:50 PM
Saturday, September 03, 2005
ok... my report of the teachers day celebrations... hmm ok my school's teachers day celebrations were well ok... i think last year's was better... i mean the concert item... but this years timing was SOO much better... im ignnoring joy's protest in the background... cause i also like the one with ms cheang and the other teachers... i like the song and actually understood the item... i just didnt understand the importance of it on TEACHERS' DAY .... hmm... must have some hidden meaning.... arh well... the aces day workout wasnt anything new... CANT THEY COME UP WITH NEW WORKOUTS? i mean hello! dont they get tired of it? hiax... well... arh now came the fun part... i didnt participate in the captains ball like i was supposed to cause i was sick... technically... so varruna, sade, fadilah, shahini, thilanga, sharifah, renuka, may and me went to play charades... so we werent supposed to but what the heck lah.... nobody caught us so.... hahas... then we had to go for prize presentation... boring... so then it was time to go back... but su-ann had bought a teachers day cake for ms jou and mr tan so we got said teachers and sung a teachers day song for them... coined off the cedarian birthday song... skipping the chinese version... so then i remembered that the cake was dark chocolate or something like that... then i realised that i couldnt eat it! *stupidity* cause of my sorethroat... hahas... so i called my mum and asked her to fetch me half and hour early... then she sent me to tns!!!!
i didnt want go back to my primary school dressed in school uniform so i asked my mum to bring my purple blouse and pink shorts... ok the colours are kinda girly but it looked fabulous together... and well duh cause im wearing it... yah so i crossed the bridge and went into my primary school... hmm there were many secondary school students there... and met with serene, genvieve, lee qi and tristan... hmm wow tristan GREW! i mean he's still shorter than me but he's taller than serene! okay not by much but hey he grew a lot... so then i managed to convince serene to go downstairs to the canteen cause the hall was freaking hot... they didnt turn on the air-con yet... hmm... ohkay so i went to the canteen and saw... tat ming and derek... i had already seen the taller derek so i wasnt so surprised... however when i saw tat ming... i STARED... holy crap... that idiot was taller... er way WAY taller... he was at least 1.75 or something... eeek! scary scary... hmm cant remeber much about that... so after gawking, the three of us went to sit at the starbucks tables... we started talking and catching up and what not... then i just happened to look up... and saw glen... so i waved... he waved back and i continued in my conversation with serene and genevieve... not much later... here's the conversation i had with glen...
glen: hi. so did you accept tjc's offer?
me: hi. yah i did.
glen: so you're definitely going to tjc next year?
me: yah. erm did vjc call you for interview? (expecting a smug yes)
glen: no. they called you?
me: (shocked) yeah... but i dont think i got in cause they havent sent me an acceptance letter.
glen: (physically staggers with shocked look plastered on face then recovers)
glen: so you're going to tjc next year?
me: yeah i suppose
glen: oh okay. well bye
me: (smiles) bye
hahahahahahhhas..... i actually thought he would be able to get through to the interview at least... i mean we always used to get around the same marks and all... but then again that was 4 years ago... so... then hmmm yah so the converastion with serene and genevieve continued before we tried to go and find our p6 chinese teacher... and met wendy, jolene and marianne... os then we went up the hall again and (thank you lord) they had turned on the air-con... the three of us managed to find space at the back to sit down when the head prefect made his speech... ohkay the head prefect is so CHILDISH... his speech could have been written by a primay three and the way he said it... it made everyone think that he MUST have failed his oral... honestly a primary one kid could have done better... sheesh what is this world coming to? arh anyway... i got up to wald over to shilbe when i got side tracked by chang-e and qing yuan... haha! i can honestly say that im about the same height as chang-e... so then shilbe found me and immediately hugged me... oh it was so long since i last saw her! hahas... so then we went to talk outside... caught up and all then i got my bag and we went to eat... or at least i did.. she wanted to eat at home... gosh i miss the school food... my god i miss my primary school friends! everywhere i went, everyone was like ay hi! after lunch, i found my friends and it just so happened that tse see brought a netball so we started playing netball... it was fun while it lasted then at 2, i got my sister and went home...
i cant believe that cai yi and hui peng said i was prettier... awww.... *kisses* poll here... anyone here thinks im pretty? this is NOT to boost my ego... i just want to know... hahas... so oh yah today something REALLY weird happened... me and my family went for lunch at white sands and when we arrived at the food court, there were these two boys staring at me... on and off, throughout lunch cause we sat near them, they sneaked looks at me... i was like... is there something on my face or something? and when they finished their lunch, they walked past by my table and took one last long look at me... i did my best to ignore them but come on! if you want to stare at someone, shouldnt you be at least discreet? arh well i wish they would have just said something then at least i would know why they were staring... maybe i look like someone they know... cause i definitely dont recognize them... hmmm weird... hahas... well good night! oh and my dad came back from bangkok already... ;P *muax* arriverderci!
9:58 PM